origin story

I was born in a ribbed cage

created from bone and dust

from a fragment of the first man

so what does divine feminine even mean?

We arrived in our nude form

with no sense of shame

only to be branded as “seductress”

forever burdened with the first sin.

Now our clothes define so much about a person -

did we forget the first of us were wearing only skin?

Why are we ashamed of what makes us?

Are we not made in the image of a god?

To be woman is to be reduced to the physical

constantly comparing, chastising,

chasing something that feels unreachable.

When your body is your identity your whole fucking life

you cling to any positive affirmation of it

you make that your god and you pray to it

worship it

perform rituals on it every day.

Without plucking his rib for my own

there would be no life to live.

Maybe Eve knew exactly what she was doing.

Maybe she picked up her new body off of the earth

and noticed the miracles within her

felt the aching and longing beginning to bloom beneath her skin

mimicking the delicate petals unfolding around her.

Maybe she noticed the lovely roundness of her glutes

the strength in her legs

and knew how far they could take her -

felt the thick chords of her arms

and desired to hold the world.

Maybe she wasn’t sealing womans’ fate as seductress

but instead deciding that fate for her own

declaring the sweetness of the first fruit for the feminine

the first soul to dare defy the divine.

I was not born to be caged within my own ribs

to be chasing skinny

to reveal the bones beneath my flesh

I was born to eat the fruit and

to fuck the man.

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I am still deep in the trenches of deconstructing this religious pillar that holds up the building of my beliefs. I am still learning how to accept that my body is not the most interesting thing about me, the soul inside of me is. yet, I have no doubt that our nude, raw form is incredible beautiful, miraculous even. but only when it is healthy, nurtured, full. not starved, not devoid of hair and bumps and scars - of evidence of living.